The season of advent is a time of expectant waiting and preparation for the celebration of Christ at Christmas. This season has been both very difficult and extremely reflective for me over the last 5 years. As each year passed, my heart longed even more for my children to be home. All I could do was lean harder into God and reflect on the waiting. Through the hurt of my waiting, I could feel the hurt of our broken world waiting for a savior to come. It was a beautifully painful season. This advent season has been spent wildly reading our Christmas countdown books, learning about baby Jesus, and what Christmas is all about. It has been full of giggles, snuggles, joy, excitement, and fullness. This advent season, we have been able to hold our boys in our arms. They are home and we are all thriving as a family of 6! As we have prepared for this Christmas, a celebration of Christ's birth, we have read "Jesus' birthday story" and played with our Nativity set. Our boys call every baby, baby Jesus! What a joy to hear their little voices talk about baby Jesus and His birthday! I shared with a friend that they call every baby baby Jesus and she responded, “maybe they see Jesus in every baby.” I hope so.
We are almost 9 weeks home and it still seems surreal that they are here sometimes. My heart still flutters when they say (not yell) Momma. Christmas is just a couple of days away and as I watch these sweet twin boys sleep, I am left thinking now what? Advent has been very meaningful for me in our wait, it has brought me closer to God. This season is different. They are home, I feel full, but I don't want to miss what God has for me. I realized advent goes beyond the waiting to celebrate Christ’s birth and into waiting on the return of Christ at the Second Coming. I am still waiting! I am waiting for God to fulfill every promise. He brought our boys safely home. He has answered prayers we never even thought to ask. He has grafted two amazing boys into our family seamlessly. Those promises have been fulfilled. But He has more promises. He will return and I want to be ready. I want my family to be ready. My advent focus is more important now than ever. I have four children that God has entrusted into my care. Four hearts God has chosen me to pore into. Four amazing people that can change this world by shining His light. I will fall short! I will make BIG mistakes! But God will fill my gaps. While He has given me the chance to be their mom, they all belong to Him! He has plans for them. He has created them for His workmanship. I am just lucky enough to have a front row seat to the amazing things He will do in their lives. And for that I am eternally grateful. I am in awe of the story God is writing for my little family. This advent has been different, but God is still be with me in my wait. Merry Christmas from the Miller Family!
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AuthorMy name is Deidra Miller. I have been married to my wonderful husband, Dusty, for 17 years. We have two biological children and our family is growing again. We prayed for 2,786 days and God answered our prayers. More days (almost 4 years) have been added as we wait for God's perfect plan for our family. We can't wait to meet our beautiful twin boys! Archives
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